I took this photo after a busy shift at work, too tired and had no energy to go out and I was up again in a few hours to again be at work.
As much fun as I had in that employer, I was really unhappy working 50-60 hours a week feeling extremely stressed and unfulfilled.
I promised myself this would be the year I got shit done.
And that I did. The beginning of January was when my housemate moved out and I had done what I usually did and pretended things weren't happening and then when they did I was devastated. As much as I love time alone, I live 3-4 hours away from my family and my housemate became like family to me. I felt pretty low, so I put myself back into anti-depressants and from there things got mostly better.
I went and got my third tattoo (you can read about that in this post here) , I started to do more things, I went blonde again go out a bit more and be more active. More importantly I started to treat myself better. I learned a lot about self love and putting yourself and your health and happiness first.
But in the background as much as I tried to build myself up, my job was always draining me.
Then in May my Grampsy passed away and it suddenly hit me that life is far too short and with that I handed in my notice.
I had nothing else lined up but I had enough to live off for a few months. I just couldn't live the same lifestyle anymore. I had tried for ages to leave my job but I always ended up staying because of money or things temporarily got better and there were things I genuinely loved about where I was working.
But I knew the only way to really make a change would be to give myself the biggest push. Luckily I found a new job within 3 days. I talked about it, in a little more detail in my post which you can read here.
And now I'm in a job that I love and I'm much happier.
Like I said at the beginning of this post, I did more things. I went to Bath for my sisters hen do.
Then the summer was pretty hectic in one month; I moved house, I went to V Festival and saw Jay Z live, which was on my bucket list. I went to my sisters wedding and then went to Barcelona with one of my oldest friends. I also took many little trips in between.
This year as tough as it times has been one of the best years of my life and I feel like I'm finally a person I accept and love.
I'm spending this New Years Eve having a night in watching films and looking after myself.
I hope I feel as good as I do this evening, all year round. And I'm looking forward to whatever 2018 has to bring.
Happy New Years whatever you end up doing.
Hope you're 2018 is everything you hoped for and more.