Ahhh its been so long since I've actually blogged. All my post recent posts have been scheduled ones from like 2 weeks ago so it seems so long ago since I've actually type away at my Macbook that hasn't been anything other than me typing in the browser 'Netflix' or 'Sky Go'.
Which btw Sky Go is a whole new revolution to me. I've had Sky for 2 years but I've always had a Chromebook which you can't download Skylight or whatever its called onto so I've been without. Now I just spend all my mornings catching up on films etc. I can't remember the last time I actually sat in my front room.
I can't remember if I mentioned on here or not but I had one of my pals move in after living alone for 6 months. Which has been lovely. I always think I love living alone and then when I don't I realise I actually hate it. It's so much nicer having someone to talk to that isn't a cat. Plus bills are halved so I have mo' money to spend on clothes.
I feel like I've been much more social in 2015 than 2014. I think its a lot of things. I'm much more confident, sometimes I tend to be such an introvert and I think if given the chance I would spend all my time alone in my room. But I now enjoy going out and seeing people. I also feel like I have a greater circle of friends. I'm still friends with all the people I have known for the last 4-5 years but I've also expanded with work friends and reconnected with old friends.
I think Amy has had a huge influence on that. I have mentioned previously but I lost one of my closest friends from uni this year which has been a weird rollercoaster for me. At the time of her death we had drifted apart and its honestly been the hardest thing I've ever gone through. Some weeks I'm fine and some weeks I cry every day non stop. I've felt every emotion possible along the way. It's been weird. But I always try and turn tragedy to triumph and I am making sure I do more and see more people, because life is precious. Yeah slothing around the house all day is great but life will pass you by.
I also have become much more carefree. Amy was the most carefree human I have ever met and I can be uptight and worry about EVERYTHING especially the future but now I kind of really don't care. I think especially I care even less what people think of me. I've become very thick skinned and instead of being like "Should I post that" or "Should I say that" I'm just like fuck it. Do what you want. Live your life how you want to live it. Just be happy.
I think this is the first time in like a year I've wrote a long ranty post just talking about myself. I'm off to go get my hair chopped anyway (considering a long bob but I don't know) and then I'm going to schedule some more posts for my busy week ahead. I'm also considering purchasing a DSLR as I've had some inheritance come through from my Grampy and he was super into photography so I feel like that would be the perfect investment.
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